Don't get me wrong..
I AM NOT PREGNANT ( for now)..
I just hope that someday (sooner) i will feel how exactly being a mommy to be..
Being married for 1 year 2 weeks n 3days but still i am not pregnant..
sometimes i feel depressed with it..
When it is time to go back to my Kampung n all the makcik2 ask me "betian sudah ko mie?" (betian means pregnant in Bahasa Brunei) "si anu yg ari tu kawin sama2 hari sama ko tu betian sda, nda batah lagi kan beranak"(batah means lama or 'long time') n the worst is when "idih ngapa kian batah banar?. capat2 bha! lampuh banar bha ko ani kali" (why does it take too much time? Make it hurry. U're fat. Maybe that's why you don't get pregnant). Yes i am slightly overweight but i'm still not obese n there are so many women outside there that is 'plumpy' than me gets pregnant easily ok!.
Sooo please don't ask me why i don't get pregnant. That is all not beyond my control.
I am not God (remember that!).
I can plan n i can put all the effort to try for it but
Allah is the one who make it happen.
Allah knows the best for me, for us.
Maybe now is not the right time for us.
Maybe someday, later our time will come..
just pray for 'that' time will be sooner..
aduih ingat aritu ko prgnnt suda abis post mu tu mcm prgnnt....ka aku tesalah baca....tau lah orang tua-tua ni nda sabar mo becucu kali..and then yg muda-muda tu kadang2 nda faham sbb environment drg semua kawin trus dpt bb kan..apa pun rezeki tu bkn semestinya anak kan..kesihatan pun rezeki jg :)
ReplyDeleteaku pun sangka aku pregnant bab lewat sda 2 bulan lebih n rasa2 diri mcm ada baby dlm tummy (pembawaan mgkin bab tampau maukan baby) sekali cek negative then few days gitu period.. hmmm hampa lagi.. ya lah btul ckpmu ma, rezeki itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk n dugaan itu juga datang dari pelbagai aspek.. yg penting aku faham n terima disebalik setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya.. doakan aku ma..
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